Why does livejournal never save a draft when you actually NEED it to? >_< I'm too exhausted to write out the entire stressed gripe again. Just be glad livejournal saved your eyes from my stressed rant of  "oh my god, school sucks and I'm going to die whine whine angst angst." I'll get back to it again, don't worry. When I have the energy.

Tonight
-study for Theater
-take theater test online

Wednesday
-homework/reading/catch-up
-attempt to order copy of missing Russian book from publishers?
-kickboxing? (I've lost all motivation and energy for that shit)

For Thursday
-Senior portfolio due!
-Tech needs list/set draw-up/etc due for Theater class
-Meeting with Brammall 11:30 to explain why my paper sucks
-readings for Peoples of Russian Empire (in the WRONG BOOK)
-allergy shot

For Friday
-Take home test due in class for Roman history
-POSSIBLY the short paper for the WRONG book in Peoples of Russian Empire?

I miss when "Breaks" were actually breaks. >_<

To do over Thanksgiving Break:

*Interview Mother for oral history project (find tape recorder/video camera somehow)
*Read relevant sections of "The Mommy Myth" for oral history project
*Write short paper on oral history project
*Read "Growing Up Mississippi" for Women in American History class
*Interview sister about Young Adult Literature
*Write paper for Young Adult literature
*Write a rough-draft of Greek history paper and e-mail to Dr. Rose ASAP
*Study for Japanese final Tuesday (What the FUCK!?!?!?!)

which means I'm not even going to have time to think about my Research paper. Why do all my professors thing they're the only ones who have work due? No relaxing break for me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEN sister_midnite!!!!! I hope you have a WONDERFUL one! <3

I totally want to have some sort of going-away party over Winter Break with all the U. City peeps (and Ash, of course). I should look into this. Study abroad stuff is going along just fine, so far. I got an e-mail confirmation back about my class schedule proposal from Austria, my $500 deposit to hold my place is in, I got my International Student Identity Card back, and I have a plane ticket to Austria all bought and ready to go! Of course I still need to mail my father some documents so that he can continue to work on getting me a visa, get back an important form from my doctor back in St. Louis, and air-mail off my final application (mini-biography, health info sheet, housing information, etc) asap before Austria starts getting pissed at me for it being so late. God, I can't believe things are tying together...that I'm really going. I am promising right now to take a ton of picture and journal everything I can. I may even make a separate study-abroad journal... who knows. Anyway, it will never happen unless I get this application stuff back to them soon. Stupid air-mail and waiting for doctors to fill out forms.


Today I chit-chatted with Cute Conservative History Class Boy in Survey of Modern Europe today. Allison thinks I should "hit that." I also saw Cute Desk Boy when he was walking into the sub while I was eating dinner, in which we made very brief talk as he passed by, waved our arms around, and he made a Beatles joke. Mmmm. good times.

Annnnnyway, I really don't have time for this journal entry. I know I've been lax in updating lately, mostly because I've been so weighed down with stuff to do. This weekend was wonderful and relaxing, and I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! you hear that?! And I was absolultely thrilled to do nothing all weekend, just watched Disney movies (Toy Story 2, Lion King), Princess Mononoke, and played Sims2 a lot. And oh MAN did I need a break this weekend, even though I really should have been writing papers, reading books, and so on and so forth.

So now I must get off livejournal (haha, as if I won't be checking for updates in... oh, 15 minutes) and start all my homework, and take a nice long shower in there somewhere. I ahve a lot to do this week, and this stuff is only the things I can remember off the top of my head!

For Tomorrow:
-History Summentary (read article and write summentary)
-Rough draft of Anna Karenina theater unit paper!!! (Waaaaaaaaah!)

Wednesday:
-Medieval Lit outline for term paper DUE (waaah)
-Do a Queer THeory QCQ

Thursday:
-Anna Karenina paper DUE

Friday:
-History paper on Persian Letters due

The first thign that made me laugh today after stressing all morning about how awful the rest of this week (and next week) is going to be was from nobleplatypus's livejournal about the Harry Potter movie. :
"Was also looking at screenshots over at the leaky cauldron. They're all very pretty, aren't they? The actors, I mean. All pretty and wearing such hip clothes. Apparently, they've all transferred from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry to St. Abercrombie's Modeling Academy. "Take those robes off and put on something trendy! Raa!"


This could not be worse timing for the Prism Dance this weekend. Not only do I have a book to finish (at least I'm 2/3 of the way through) and a Summentary due by 3:00 Sunday afternoon (and THAT'S after probably dancing the night away until 5 in the morning!!!), but also my Anna Karenina project to finish by Tuesday (I'm going to make paperdolls, I think. This requires work. And time. That I dont' have). This probably means that I cant' stay up too late Friday night and hang out with Denni because I'm going to need to get up Saturday and do my history summentary. Blarg. Also, my lit paper is due Friday and I really need to do well on it considering I completely and utterly bombed the midterm. Fuck, I have so much to doooo! At least I'm getting to see Denni and going to dance my ass off at the PRism dance and forget all about school for a few precious hours. Oh, and another good thing, I got an A- on my first Anna Karenina paper. Whoot.

Been thinking about how I'm going to post pictures on lj while in Austria. Because I know I'm going to take SHITLOADS of them. With no digital camera, it will be hard to post online, but I'm assuming the school will have scanners somewhere. I should remember to stock up on film when I'm getting ready to go. Also, check and make sure my camera still works, it's getting a little worse for wear, but it's a damn nice camera that I gto for Christmas like 4 years ago or... somethingand it works just fine last time I checked. I also, this weekend, need to double-check on money for study abroad, which worries me. I think I need all sorts of deposits in fairly soon. And go to the office and ask about the fees, because one is asking for a $500 deposit by November 17th adn then a seperate piece of paper says a $300 deposit, both to confirm my place in the program. So it'd be nice to know if it was one or the other or both. Also, I need to fill out the Student Identity Card application and give THEM $22 and fill out my Emergency Information. Waaah. I cant' concentrate on school stress AND trying to remember to get all this stuff paid.

Anyway, enough stressing for you guys! It's a fuckign beautiful 70 degrees outside... I love this weather so damn much.

meh, I am not feeling well tonight. I ahve a slight fever of 99.2, which is really nothing to worry about. I had a bit of a stomach ache earlier tonight (nothing new there either), and I'm exhausted. Also, when I went to get my allergy shot this afternoon, they were upping my dose, and apparently this shot was, in the nurse's own words, 1o times stronger than the last shot. So of course my arm is really swollen up. It also hurts, but I'm putting some anti-itch cream on it in hopes that if it stops itchign, maybe the swelling and the minor pain will go down as well. Blarg.

Why isn't this week OVER yet? I still have my Queer Theory current event to write about, history reading to catch up on... and all I want to do is go to bed, as after working last night till 6 and getting up this morning for allergy shots, I had no nap. At least tomorrow is the Cake concert, but I'm really going to need to find a time to nap at some point or I'm not going to be able to hang out with my girls tomorrow night. I should get back to homework... man, I can barely keep my eyes open.

anyhow. back to work.

Blarg, the day is finally over. I totally blew the Medieval English Lit midterm, that's no joke. But at least I have no homework for tomorrow, so maybe I can get a head start on Friday's homework. And also as I work tonight, perhaps I'll go to Cute Desk Boy's room and return the old movie and maybe ask for a new one. Or just return the old one. ~_^

because my student advisor is in Ghana for the semester, I have to look at my possible class schedule for next semester earlier than everyone else so I can get it approved. Of course I dont' even know if I'll be here next semester, but since I won't find out if I'm accepted into the Austria programme until December or summat, I have to have classes in mind anyway. Once again, there are a strange shortage of history classes, especially on M/W/F, and I was trying NOT to end up with two or three film classes. Here is what I sent as my possible 2006 spring class schedule if I'm in the United States:

Monday/Wednesday/Friday

12:20-1:20 HIST341 Ancient West Asia & Egypt -Rose
1:30-2:20 ENG330 North American Indian Lit -Bartter

Tuesday/Thursday
9:00-10:20 HIST333 Native Americans' Frontier -Mandell
1:30-2:50 HIST391 Latin American Revolutions -Becker
6:00-8:15 ENG322 Study in World Cinema:Film Noir -Woodcox


Back-up classes include
HIST322 The Western Film
ENG315 Studies in Shakespeare

so it's time to unwind from a long, stressful day. Not too much farther to go, at least before the weekend! And only two more until the CAKE concert! Haha, I also just totally bonded with my hall Student Advisor over Wicked. I think we're both seeing it the same day at the same theater in the same section. We talked for waaay too long about it and I was holding up her other students looking for advice or whatnot, but still... yay for that! I cant' beleive I'm seeing it in a month! THanksgiving and the lovely mental health break that comes along with it can not come along soon enough, let me tell you.

Woah. I just e-mailed my Constitutional Government professor about my final grade? Apparently I got an 80% on the final. Which means I get a fucking B in the class because Prof. Hagerty promised us that if we did better on the final than the midterm, he would take that grade instead!!! THis is the same class where I got a 67% on the midterm even after studying my ass off and I was currently worrying about how I was going to have to take the course all over again and never graduate from college. DUDE. 80%! Man, I hope that was MY grade and not someone elses. I guess my studying over fall break paid off! *does victory dance*

Of course, that doesn't mean that I've learned anything, because I'm about to go take some Aleve for the cramps and take a bit of a nap instead of studying for my big scary Medieval Lit midterm tomorrow... stupid cramps. Tonight Queer Theory is showing Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, which I am going to see because it's for class and how could I pass something like that up?! Even though I should be studying studying studying.

Also, I guess I need to start picking out classes for so I can register for next semester in case I don't get to go abroad. There's an Ancient West Aisa and Egypt history class I'd kill to take if I am here next semester, along with Native American Lit, WOrld Cinema Lit class with my Queer Theory professor from this semester, Native American Frontiers hitory course, and Latin American Revolutions history course all sound really interesting. But despite the fun classes available next semester, I'm really hoping that I won't be here to take them. I'm really, really anxious about study abroad... the office told me they can easily fax my application to the study abroad programme at any time, so I don't have to worry about snail mail, but I cant' figure out what my other two professors with my reccomendations are up to. I've written thank you notes, reminder e-mails, and yet they still haven't turned anything in. I guess I'll have to go ask them about it AGAIN. Blarg. I hope my The Network cd comes soon! I also just copied my roomates Beatles Anthology into my itunes, and am enjoying it immensly.

anyway. naptime! B in Government! Whoot!

The horrible stomach ache I woke up with that had me wondering if I was coming down with the Flu turned out to just be really bad cramps. After staying up all night tryinhg to complete my Survey of Modern Europe midterm (Stupid midterms!!! You're not supposed to drag on for three weeks! Soon enough ti will be time for finals and we'll STILL BE TAKING MIDTERMS!), I totally crashed in a haze of Aleve, which I am planning to do again once Allison gets picked up this afternoon because Queer Theory was CANCELLED (hell yeah!). Also, my Medieval Literature midterm is Wednesday and I'm freaking the FUCK out about it because that's a damn lot of medieval texts in old English that we're goign to have to recognise on cue and be able to identify. I mean, I'm reallllly freaking out about it. So tonight I have my summentary for Survey of Modern Europe plus I need to get my ass moving on re-reading all these Medieval texts. Blarg, also I need to e-mail my Constitutional Government professor to see if I passed his stupid ass class so I can graduate from college.

I'm getting antsy about my study abroad crap. I turned in my application late last week (Thursday or Friday, I can't remember), but they haven't sent it off because only one of my three reccomendations were in. Which is NOT good because I'm assuming the programme office has to recieve the application by November 1st, not the Truman study abroad office. So I sent the Truman office and e-mail askign how worried I should be about this getting in on time, and also e-mails to my professors about the reccomendations themselves. One wrote me back right away saying she would drop it off this afternoon, but my Queer Theory professor has dissapeared off the face of the planet. Blarg, I really hope this works out... I will continue to check my e-mail like a fiend until I hear back from someone.

And now I might go against Allison's suggestion to wait until the picking-her-up stuff has blown over to go lie down, even instead of a possible fun excersion to Wal*Mart with Ash, because cramps... not so much fun. And sleep really is fun. I do, however, need some more Soup at Hands, I go through that stuff like... erm... insert metaphor here, probably something to do with hot guys or Rufus or slash. Wow. Brain is BROKEN hard-core. This calls for snuggling deep under my covers.

also, I can't get this damn song out of my head.
http://www.collegehumor.com/movies/46954/

Blarg, this week is going to kick my ass so damn much. Today of course is my Constitutional Government final... which I NEED to do well in. Because of course I need to pass the class to graduate, and I got a 69% on my midterm. Which is NOT helping in confidence for studying for this final, because I had thought I knew all the information the LAST time and had studied long and hard. And last night I was honestly so exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open as I tried to study, even though I forced myself to stay up and study, so I'm doubting I took much in last night. And of course tomorrow my Anna Karenina paper is due (Aaah!), in which I have STILL not managed to decipher the pyschology-babble/crap that I have to write about. And Wednesday I have a paper due in history on a book I haven't gotten much into yet, of course. And I need to finish up my study-abroad stuff and turn it all in (plus thank-you notes for my professors who gave me reccomendations, and of course use the thank-you notes as a subtle reminder to them to turn it in if they haven't yet). So, for the rest of the day I study study study what I can for government until the test at 4:30, then I start my Anna Karenina paper tonight until I turn it in tomorrow, and then I immediately read the book for history so I can stay up and write the paper. Sounds like a grand week. I hope Thursday and Friday aren't this horrid.

Last night we took a dinner-break from my studying government to watch Help! on a really old, shaky, broken VHS of Alison's (I still need a copy to watch where I can actually see the whole scene well), but of course that lead to me having a strange dream. I really had tried to stay up and study all night, but I was SO tired from yesterday and the shenanigans over the weekend taht I couldn't stay up. Yes, so now I'm going to study and TRY not to freak out about how awful I'm going to do on this final.

( Poor sad Ringo doesn't like Lennon's new song )

1) I can't stop listening to that "Mad World" cover from Donnie Darko. Like over and over and over again, to the point where it's on repeat on your playlist and you just can't stop listening to the words.

2)I've studied for this midterm a LOT. Unnaturally a lot for me especially. I paid attention HARDCORE in every single one of my classes and took extensive notes. I highlighted and wrote vocab words and filled out local government information while working the late night desk. I went outside and studied over the weekend. I made flashcards. I went to the hour-long study session tonight in Violette Hall. And yet I STILL don't know half the crap I need to for this stupid thing. I don't know whether to stop studying, give up, and get some sleep or continue to fight my brain into remembering what article and section the necessary and proper clause can be found in? Gaaah, I hate this. I'll never learn all these details and I'll never learn all the articles and clauses. I feel like a stupid American not being able to understand my government, and even MORE like a stupid American for just not caring anymore. It's a fascinating class, I love the lectures, I love learning about amendments and court cases and the hidden hillarities in the constitution, but test me on it and all the love is gone. I HATE this crap. Stupid articles.

3) I've made a little fort for myself under my bed now that I've rearranged my desk/furniture. And I can hang my pretty flowered throw from under my bed so that it hangs down and makes a REAL fort-like thing for privacy when my roomies are watching gross television shows. It's stupid, but it kinda harks back to the good old days of childhood when I used to make elaborate couch-forts with pillows with my sister.

4) On a completely random note: when I was a kid, I used to get Marshmallow man and the tire man mixed up.





...and now to attempt studying for a half-hour before I give up and go to bed. whoot.